princess...

“KING’S DAUGHTER”

She walks carefully,

Because she needs to look like a lady.

She dress neatly,

Because she needs to impress everybody.

She is beautiful,

And that’s the one thing she needs to be thankful.

She has everything,

And that’s the other thing she needs to be thankful.

She has a beautiful face,

That every guy wants to chase.

And she has a beautiful heart,

That everybody wants to be part.

She can have a lovely smile,

That makes you as well wants to smile.

She is so kind,

That makes her not out of your mind.

But behind those goods of her,

Her life is destined to be unfair,

Because she’s a king’s daughter,

She needs to marry someone, even though, he is not her lover.

Her life is not easy,

Because she is a royalty.

Her life was already planned,

For her family to add their fund.

She has no right to demand,

Because she have many funds.

She just need to do he duty,

For her to be free.

But even though, she don’t want to not follow,

Her mind didn’t really want it to allow,

Because, at the back of her mind,

True love is what she wants to be find.

She is also a woman,

Who wants to marry her loving man.

She is also a lady,

Who wants to be by the side of her honey.

Can you blame her?

If one day, she left the palace,

Even though she’s the heir?

Because she wants to be a normal lady, with her honey and create a family.

Everybody wants to be on her position,

Ironically, she wants to be on everybody’s position.

And that’s the saddest part of life…

We always wanted the other’s life.

  

Superman..

  “SUPERMAN”

                      When I was in 3rd year high school, that was the time I’ve finally realized who was my first love. Although, we've known each other for a long time.. I just realized my feelings for him on that year. He's not that have good looks, but his talent makes him a good looking guy. He's smart, singer, writer, poet and mathematician! And maybe, those are the things made me fall for him.

                      I didn’t expect that to happen, because we are such a good friend. Actually, he always teased me and in that way, we become close. But, when he finally knew, my feelings for him.. we started not to talk to each other. I don’t know who the first one who didn’t talk. It was suddenly, and I become sad on that part. But still, I just go with the flow. He courted the girl he really likes and it hurts deep inside. I just say it in my friends. When we become 4^th year high school, I thought I already forget him. Well.. I just thought. Sadly, my feelings become so real... that later on, I realized that it was so real and sincere. “That I love him so much, and I don’t care if I’m not his first love. Fist love doesn’t always mean your first kiss, first in all things. But, first love means that it was different to those loves that you will going to have. This is the kind of love that you will always compare to those loves that you’ll going to have in the future.”

                  It’s been almost 5 years, but I still remember the memories I had with him. Those memories are not the kind of memories that you will inspired to fall in love. But, a kind of memories that makes you feel “kilig” even in such a small things. And I’ll always cherish that kind of memories. It’s been almost 5 years, and many things happen. I fall in love again in someone else, and just like what happen in my first love.. it was a one-sided love. But it’s fine. At least, I tried but not to the extent. Haha! When I saw my first love.. I feel sad; it’s not the guy I’ve loved before when I was high school. Because of one girl, he wasted his life. The opportunities he had, gone. If only I was the one he choosed, I think I can save him. I think, he still studying on the school he dream to study and taking the course he really wanted. If only.. But it's not.

                I say those words coz I feel sad for him. I already forgot my feelings for him, but I’m still cared for him. And still, I’ll never forget him, he’s part of my life..he became. Maybe, I already forgot my feelings for him, but still, I always compared him to those loves that will come into my life, because he is my FIRST LOVE.

PS: I called him then, Superman because as said in Taylor Swift song also entitled Superman, he describe my FL.. “tall, dark and superman...”  He will always be my superman in my past and in my life…

Love,

Lois Lane

(in my dreams)

“Humahanga”

-May 07,2016

              Ano ba ang pakiramdam na ang bandang napapanood mo lamang sa telebisyon at napapakiggan ang musika sa radio ay iyong Makita sa personal at inawitan kayong mga humahanga sa kanila? Nakakaexcite, nakakatuwa, nakakaiyak! Nakakaexcite kasi, finally this is! Ito na yung pinakahihintay mong chance. Kasi isa ka lamang sa libo-libong humahanga sa kanila na walang pambili ng ticket sa tuwing sila ay magko-concert, o walang pangentrance sa bar na may Gig sila at minsan, kahit pamasahe ay wala din. Nakakatuwa kasi finally, mararamdaman mo na yung feeling na kumanta sila ng Live. Sa Harap Mo. Yung mapupuna mo ang kaibahan ng sa telebisyon at radio, Mas maganda kasi Live! Nakakaiyak, kasi hindi ka pa din makapaniwala pagkat parang hindi totoo. Hindi mo akalain, kasi nga wala ka naming binayaran.. ang effort mo lang ay yung naghintay na lumabas sila sa entabladong kanina ka tumatanaw.

             Kaya, nang dumating ang oras na dumating sa aming lugar ang bandang aking hinahangaan. Hindi ko ito pinalampas. Gusto ko silang Makita! Yun ang tanging nasa isip ko. Kahit anong mangyari. At nang dumating ang araw na pupunta sila, kasama ang aking mga kaibigan … inabanagan naming sila. Kaso, habang lumalalim ang gabi, at naglalabas-pasok ang mga artistang inimbitahan sa pangangampanya.. nalulungkot ako, kami. Kasi wala yung hinihintay naming dumating. Wala yung bandang dahilan kung bakit kami pumunta sa event na iyon. Nakakalungkot. At nagdesisyon na kaming umuwi, Pero, nagulat kami nang may nagsalita sa mikropono. Darating Pa daw ang Banda! At kami ay bumalik at humanap ng magandang pwesto. Naghintay, at masasabi kong sulit pagkat.. ang unang kantang kanilang kinanta ay isa aking paborito- Rebound. Grabe!! Ganito pala yung pakiramdam kapag nanunuod ng concert ng banda, magulo! Maingay! Pero… sobrang Masaya!!! Yung wala kang pakielam kung nabubunggo ka na, natatapakan, nagkakaamuyan at sobrang pawis na pawis nang dahil sa init. Ang importante, Masaya ka! Nageenjoy ka. At nakikita mo sila. Dahil, maiisip mong.. minsan lang yun, at dapat sulitin! Ganito pala yung pakiramdam ng isang tunay na humahanga sa isang sikat na mga tao.  At ang panghuling kinanta nila? Sa’yo. Na labis na minahal ng kahit sino. Kilala man o hindi ang kanilang banda.

At  nakakatuwa ang ganito pakiramdam. Natutuwa akong maramdam ito. Isang pakiramdam ng isang tunay na nagmamahal na taga-hanga. Ang sumuporta, makisaya at makisigaw sa karamihan ng taong karamihan ay di mo kilala. At, sobra akong nagpapasalamat sa pangangampanya ng pulitiko. Pagkat dahil doon, nakita ko ang bandang lubos kong hinahangaan. J

“What I’ve done for Love?”

If you ask me how many times I got hurt,

I will answer you instantly that,

“I’ve been hurt for so many times.”

But if you ask me, until where did I fight for love or;

What are the things I’ve done for love..?

Maybe, I can’t instantly answer you.

Maybe, I will think twice and realize..

How pathetic I am, that been hurt because of love.

But, I’ve never done anything just to fight for it.

How pathetic I am, been so drowning on my tears because of love,

Not realizing that I forgot to fight for it.

And then, I realized..

All I’ve done is just, love the one I love.

Love him the way I know.

Love him the way I like.

Love him the way I don’t want him to love me.

After that, I realized..

That is really my fault.

And that is really my fault.

It’s my fault why I’ve hurt too much.

And for that, I’m sorry.

Maybe now, my sorry is not really matter,

Because it’s already end.

And all I can do, is to watch how this things break me apart.

How I’ve lost him, instantly.

And now, even though it happened a long time ago..

The memories of pain and happiness still strike me.

The memories of him, still on my mind,

Coz my heart still know him very much.

“To Love You More”

To love you was the thing I didn’t expected.

I have no idea that you will enter my life and then changed it.

To love you was the thing I’ve never imagined.

I never thought that you can be more than anyone on me.

And to love you was the thing I’ve never imagined, can be the one I will be afraid of.

Because the day I fell for you, is the day I started to be afraid of fall in love to someone and doubt my feelings.

To love was the greatest feeling I ever felt.

Because, that was really the first time, someone’s really care for me.

(And I love that moment.)

To love you was the thing I never imagined in my life.

Because, I thought I’m just no one girl on the side and then, you came along.

To love you was really a heaven feeling!

Because, even for short time, I felt the Mutual Feelings many people say.

How I always want you by my side.

How I always want to see you and to be with you.

But..

To love you was to felt that I am really unsure on your feelings on me.

I’m very sure on my feelings for you,

But I’m not sure if what you said to me is true,

If what you said, is really what you truly feel.

I’m started to doubt about it.

To love you was not really easy thing.

I love you, but I didn’t sure if you really feel the same way.

I love you, but I’m not sure, this time you mean it.

And my mind and heart starts to argue.

To love you was the very painful feeling I ever felt.

You didn’t know how many tears I shed for you.

You didn’t know how long I always cry and sad because of you.

You didn’t know how many times I asked myself  where did I go wrong?

How this thing happened?

But now, I’m okay.

I can smile.

I can laugh.

But, sorry..

Even though I stop my dramas..

Until now, I didn’t stop to love you more.

“Taon”

Matagal-tagal na rin,

Simula nang tayo ay pagtagpuin.

Matagal-tagal na rin,

Nung di ko inaasahang ika’y  mapapansin.

Nung mga panahong, ok lang ang lahat.

Nung mga panahon para sa akin ang nakikita ko ay sapat.

Wala akong pake sa ibang tao.

Liban sa mga nakakasama ko.

Pero nung pumasok siya sa buhay ko.

Nagiba na ang takbo nito.

Nang dumating siya sa buhay ko.

Pakiramdam ko muli akong nabuo.

Pakiramdam ko lahat ay nagbago.

Pero ang di ko pinaghandaan saglit lang pala ito.

Dahil ang totoo ay ito pala ay isang malaking biro,

Isang malaking panggagago.

Nakakatawa! Naloko ako.

O sabihin na lang nating,talagang tanga lang ako.

Pinayuhan na kasi ako,

Talagang nagpakatanga lang ako,

Kaya nang sa wakas saglitang bakasyon ay sumapit,

Ako’y lubhang natuwa at paglimot ay pinilit.

At nakakatuwang puso’t utak ko at nagkasundo.

Upang siya, sa puso ko’y talagang maglaho.

Pero, di ko alam,  sadyang ang tadhana’y mapagbiro,

O talagang ikaw lang ay gago.

Bakit ang lakas pa rin ng epekto mo?

Kahit saglitan ka lang sa tabi ko umupo,

Mukhang nakilala ka agad muli ng aking puso.

Umasang muli,

Nagmahal muli.

Naramdaman ko kasing ito na uli.

Ang bagay na aking hinihingi.

Pakiramdam ko ang lahat ay Masaya,

Pakiramdam ko wala nang makakapigil pa.

Dahil pakiramdam ko , sa piling niya ay langit na,

Pagkat ang makasama siya ay sapat  na.

Ayos ang lahat sa amin,

Ok kami, Masaya lang sa damdamin.

Pakiramdam ko ok na ito.

Ok na sa akin ang ganitong ayos.

Ang importante kami ay nakakakilos.

Pero di pala yun sapat.

Akala ko yu na ang lahat.

Akala ko yun na ung pinakasaya

May importante pa pala.