Superman..

  “SUPERMAN”

                      When I was in 3rd year high school, that was the time I’ve finally realized who was my first love. Although, we've known each other for a long time.. I just realized my feelings for him on that year. He's not that have good looks, but his talent makes him a good looking guy. He's smart, singer, writer, poet and mathematician! And maybe, those are the things made me fall for him.

                      I didn’t expect that to happen, because we are such a good friend. Actually, he always teased me and in that way, we become close. But, when he finally knew, my feelings for him.. we started not to talk to each other. I don’t know who the first one who didn’t talk. It was suddenly, and I become sad on that part. But still, I just go with the flow. He courted the girl he really likes and it hurts deep inside. I just say it in my friends. When we become 4^th year high school, I thought I already forget him. Well.. I just thought. Sadly, my feelings become so real... that later on, I realized that it was so real and sincere. “That I love him so much, and I don’t care if I’m not his first love. Fist love doesn’t always mean your first kiss, first in all things. But, first love means that it was different to those loves that you will going to have. This is the kind of love that you will always compare to those loves that you’ll going to have in the future.”

                  It’s been almost 5 years, but I still remember the memories I had with him. Those memories are not the kind of memories that you will inspired to fall in love. But, a kind of memories that makes you feel “kilig” even in such a small things. And I’ll always cherish that kind of memories. It’s been almost 5 years, and many things happen. I fall in love again in someone else, and just like what happen in my first love.. it was a one-sided love. But it’s fine. At least, I tried but not to the extent. Haha! When I saw my first love.. I feel sad; it’s not the guy I’ve loved before when I was high school. Because of one girl, he wasted his life. The opportunities he had, gone. If only I was the one he choosed, I think I can save him. I think, he still studying on the school he dream to study and taking the course he really wanted. If only.. But it's not.

                I say those words coz I feel sad for him. I already forgot my feelings for him, but I’m still cared for him. And still, I’ll never forget him, he’s part of my life..he became. Maybe, I already forgot my feelings for him, but still, I always compared him to those loves that will come into my life, because he is my FIRST LOVE.

PS: I called him then, Superman because as said in Taylor Swift song also entitled Superman, he describe my FL.. “tall, dark and superman...”  He will always be my superman in my past and in my life…

Love,

Lois Lane

(in my dreams)