Huwebes, Hulyo 2, 2020

Exemption...exception

“I write a poem about you, and I intended to tell everyone, except you”

                       There are billions of people in the world. Most of them have the person they choose to fall in love, not knowing the exact  reason why they love them unconditionally. And yes, unexpectedly… I belong to that “most”. Yes, I love you unconditionally without definite reason. I know that lines been used so many times that sometimes, it become so useless. But, it will never so useless and been so used to a person who truly feel the realness of being in love.

                       When I was young, I know I am just so in love in the idea of ‘’LOVE” because I kept listening to love songs; love watching romantic movies or shows; and even reading novels or stories that has a same genre. So, I believe, it makes me more think about love as I grow older. I have so many crushes; I have crush on our neighborhood; on church; at school; anywhere! But I am in love in just one person. I know that, coz I memorized this kind of feelings in my 23 years of existence. When I was young, I am so “kinikilig” while watching those romantic movies hoping it will happen on me too. But, whenever there’s a chance that someone try to come into my life- I become afraid. And boom, they will go away. Maybe, I’m too scared to try. I’m not yet ready to try. I’m afraid to get hurt. I am so scared to the commitment! So there, I always missed a chance to be in a relationship with someone up until now.

                        And then, ‘twenty-four’ happened. You happened! You’re different. Well, I know you for so long, it’s just that I started to have feelings for you not long ago. I don’t know what magical happened to me that I started to noticed you. You’re definitely no reason for me to fall for you- but here I am....falling deeply in love with you. You’re the first person I am not afraid to be with forever. The first person I am willingly to try the relationship thingy. The one and only person I will not afraid to commit and get hurt because I love you. But since these feelings are not mutual and it’s a little complicated, I choose to keep it to myself. Although my closest friends knew it- I will never tell you about it. So the question here is how can I keep this secret to myself for that long or until it fade away? Well… by means of writing about you. I will keep on writing about you so that I can express how I feel about you. I will keep on writing about you, until this feeling will fade away. It’s a double strike right? I express what I feel at the same time, I created my piece. A piece I intended to tell everyone-, except you. The works I am proudly to present in every people around me, except you. You’re my only exemption exception.